I'm a day early for Alex J. Cavanaugh’s IWSG since tomorrow is the 4th of July, and I don't think I'll be around bloggerville much, though I plan to sneak in some IWSG sites tomorrow. I'll also visit some blogs today and on Thursday.
So, a few weeks ago, my 11 yr old gave me a letter for my birthday. He drew a bookshelf with books by me AND a cool coupon for one free day of writing. He's the sweetest ever!
I cried. (big surprise) Yes, they were tears of happiness, but I felt a pang of fear as well.
Then, as I’ve been working on my WIP, that fear slowly trickled over into a full blown fear-fest. I became terrified that I’d let my family down.
And the wretched “What if’s” tormented me.
What if I don’t ever make it in the writing world? What if I never have a book pubbed? What if my family becomes disappointed in me?
I mean, my family is amazing, so I really don't think they'd think less of me. They are my biggest supporters. But deep down, I still get nervous.
And I know that I don’t need a book pubbed to acknowledge that I can write. Sure, I won’t lie, it’d be sa-weet, but being pubbed wouldn't prove that I'm a writer if I don't tackle my insecurities.
I just don't know how to go about doing that. I try to keep reminding myself that it’s up to me to stomp on those negative thoughts, but it's still difficult.
Figuring out a way to push the insecurities aside is important so they don't suffocate me and my dreams.
LOVE this quote below. Now if I would put it to use!
What do you do when the insecurities take over? Any tricks you'd care to share? Bottom line, I know it's going to take me to stop, but still, some ideas would be so helpful.
Thanks so much!